ups and downs

I'm only human. I'm not perfect, no matter how hard I try.
I'm having BM exam tmr. yet here I am typing away.
Anyways, just wanted to release some emotions? lol
nobody will understand how I feel now, cause even I don't
it's been a long time since I last blogged. haha
well here is a summary of what's happening

I BROKE UP WITH HIM. YES, I DID.
People always ask me why? Why? Because he's a big fat liar. He only lies lies lies.
Of course, the people who loves him will think he isn't though, can't blame you cause I was innocent enough to believe him through and through. But not anymore, if you're reading this or any of your friends are

LIM TZE YANG, FUCK YOU. GO TO HELL AND I HATE YOU.

Well, glads that settles, for now. If you guys are wondering what he lied about. I'm not sure where to start. Maybe he lied the whole time, maybe he lied a little. Bottom line is, he LIED. Even though he told me he would never lie to me, here he goes breaking his promise. Wait no, he broke more than ONE promise yeah. What a bastard. and he dares to call my guy friends bastards, he should look himself inside the mirror and slap himself. WAKE UP.

Okayy, I'm not gonna go emo. Like "booohooo I just broke up I can't live without him". I'm not like that. He'll receive the same treatment I got. :) Karma is so gonna get you. and that's a promise I'll keep.

also, did u guys know he is a coward? seriously. He dare to say, don't dare to admit. When I ask him, he denied like hell.

LAST NIGHT, he sent a text message to me. He said something like lao po nite muacks sleep early me too bla bla bla. Then he sent another, saying opz, sent wrongly. I was like, wtf. whoa, you're proving to me you're an even bigger loser yo. You're a weakling, coward, sissy and segala yang berkaitan. LOL. I don't know why I loved you even. (NOTE THE PAST TENSE) I should have listened to my pals, you're nothing but a fake. like how fake a Gucci bag is at the local market.

Anyway, back to life. :D

Back to school D:

Well, school is starting. And well, frankly I'm not really ready. 1st of all, I haven't even did my homework, duh. and i havent even tidied up my bag yet? haha. left it the same way as it was. woots. XD

Sigh. I miss you. =.="
EFF YOU
grrr...XD
Well, just remember the end of our deal. :) teehee ^_^
Study hard? Maybe.
Forget you? Impossible.

So yeah, school, I hate you, but Imma do my effin best there. Just you wait :D

Seriously?

You act like I will die without you, that my life would be pointless. That's where you're wrong. I can sooooo totally go on with or without you. So you can save your pride for yourself cause I don't give a damn. You need to learn to let go, oh yeah, you already effin' did that. I'm not your toy that you can play with and throw away when you get bored. So yeah, in a nutshell, I don't need you, not anymore. Look, we make mistakes, you're not a mistake, but you're a lesson :) so feel happy. haha. Anyway, I'm just happy that we both know what's good for us? Well, at least I'm sure I know. Things wouldn't work out between us anyway. :)

WHAT WAS YOUR:



1. Last beverage: ummm..mineral water?

2. Last phone call: From Mum

3. Last text message: From Tze Yang

4. Last song you listened to:

5. Last time you cried: In class, about a week before exam. D:




HAVE YOU EVER:



6. Dated someone twice: Wtf does this mean?

7. Been cheated on: Yeah..hmm... D:

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: Nah.

9. Lost someone special: Yes :(

10. Been depressed: Multiple times :C

11. Been drunk and threw up: Never even drank! XD





LIST TWO FAVORITE COLOURS:



12. Umm, black?

13. Red ;D





THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)



14. Made a new friend: A lot, yeah ;D

15. Fallen in love: That's what I presume

16. Laughed until you cried: Hell yeah! :D

17. Met someone who changed you: Umm, barely, but yeah..

18. Found out who your true friends were: Oh yes :) glad to know too

19. Found out someone was talking about you: YES! D:

20. Kissed anyone on your friend's list accidentally : NOOOOO





ABOUT YOU



21. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: About 20-30% ?

22. How many kids do you want to have: Probably 2 to 3 ?

23. Do you have any pets: Yeah :D

24. Do you wanna change your name: Nope!!!! I love my name!

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Nothing special. :/

26. What time did you wake up today: haha. good one. umm..9.30am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Chatting with Alvin LOL

28. Name something you CANNOT wait for: MY friend chia-ing me! Teehee :3

29. Last time you saw your Mother: About 5 minutes ago?

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Where I live

32. What are you listening to right now: Still loading zz EFF slow connection

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Does my uncle count if his name is Thomas?

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: I haven't washed the plates and I'm sick of doing it!

35. Most visited webpage: Facebook :D

36. What's your real name: Alexis

37. What's your nickname: Lexi, Lexis, Alex, Xis

38. Relationship Status: Technically I'm single WOOTS

39. Zodiac sign: Pisces

40. Male or female: Female

41. Elementary school: SJK Sungau Jaong

42. Middle School: SMK Marudi

43. High school/college: Not yet LOL

44. Hair colour: Black with a tint of brownish features

45. Long or short: Long, choppy layers

46. Height: 165cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone: Possibly? == not sure.

48: What do you like about yourself: I'm random and blunt at times. Does not discriminates.

49. Piercings: Ears.

50. Tattoos: in the future? haha

51. Righty or lefty: Rightyyy!!!! :D





FIRSTS :



52. First surgery: Nope :X

53. First piercing: Yah, ears.

54. First best friend: Ling Li Ching

55. First sport you joined in: Basketball > Badminton

56. First vacation: I forgot where it was, too small

58. First pair of trainers: xxxxxxxx

59. Eating: umm, when I was just born??? LMAO

60. Drinking: Probably mummy's

61. I'm about to: Don't know. Answer the next Q

62. Listening to: The Script's break even. haha

63. Waiting for: Meet my pals D:



YOUR FUTURE :



64. Want kids: yesssssss :D

65. Get Married: Yeah ;)

66. Career: Medical field.





WHICH IS BETTER :



67. Lips or eyes: Both la.

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs. teehee :3

69. Shorter or taller: Taller!!!!

70. Older or Younger: Younger.

71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous :D

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach XD

73. Sensitive or loud: Good Q. not too loud, but bold ? ;D

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationships.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble-maker WOOTS!





HAVE YOU EVER :



76. Kissed a stranger: Nooo

77. Drank hard liquor: NOPE

78. Lost your glasses/ contact: Almost lost my glasses. XDhaha

79. Sex on first date: wtf HELL NO

80. Broken someone's heart: ummm, not sure bout that. they never tell me

82. Been arrested: hahaha. LOL! NO

83. Turned someone down: yeah, sorry bout that XD

84. Cried when someone died: So far, the ones that were meaningful to me passed before I was born

85. Fallen for a friend: Yeah, i guess



DO YOU BELIEVE IN:



86. Yourself: Sometimes.

87. Miracles: yeah ;D on occasions though LOL

88. Love at first sight: eff that. It's all about physical appearance and that sucks

89. Heaven: Yeshhh <3

90. Santa Claus: haha. NO

91. Kiss on the first date: Umm..don't think so

92. Angels: There is one right now <3





ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:



94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: NOOOOOO

95. Did you sing today: oh yeah!

96. Ever cheated on somebody: Nope.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: When it was a lot easier and simpler.

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: The time I met Malcolm. LOL

99. Are you afraid of falling in love: Yeah. Love sucks? haha

100. Posting this as 100 truths: YESHHH

Oh yeah. we did make up. haha. but somehow after you broke up with me, that feelin aint there no more. Sorry but this eagle has got to fly ;D we're still friends though. :) hmmm~ it's not too bad actually, getting used to it. pfft. i won't die :D yeah. Holidays are almost over and I'm looking forward to my results? haha. uh-oh. don't sound like Alexis. well, I guess I did pretty well. I already know I aced Chemistry, Moral and Math. Teehee :3 but about other subbies, I don't know. LMAO. haha. Well, still awaiting for form 5. By then I can drive WOOTS!

:'(

Yeah,those were the times...going out with my b whenever we had the time to =]
always will, and never shall I forget the times we spent together, you made every second worth while, made my stay worth while. You make me feel special in so many ways, even when I'm sweating and I rubbed my sweat on your shirt, :( haha awwhhh...At night near 9pm, we were hanging at the park, then this girl who claimed she was death wanted to sell some couple-like souvenirs in exchange for RM8. I turned to u and u shook your head. awwhh..kolian =[ the next time, we were havin the last day together, we had our last meal at kfc, then an old man approached us and told us that he needed money to pay for the operation for his son or something, in return he sold some crackers worth RM2 each. being the easily sympathetic me, I fished out 5 and handed it to him, then he just left us with two packets of crackers and left. and i was lyk, hey, wat bout my change D: haha but he was long gone. oh well, so many sellers love us bah, bo bian..<3

alot of things happened before and after that,and I wish not to repeat again :( sigh. the rest, i know clearly what happened...;[ couldnt see you after u stepped into that car, cause I know that would be the last time we would meet for a long period. oh well, life sucks, just accepting reality.

Have u ever tried sleeping with a broken heart

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear inside my head
Tellin' me, touch me, feel me

And all the time you were tellin' me lies

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well, you could try sleeping in my bed

Lonely, on me nobody ever shut (?) it down like you
You want a crown
You made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me
Near me, I thought you told me
You'd never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I know right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love
With you
Right til the end OOh

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you


Anybody could've told you right from the start
It's bound (?) to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream
We'll just hold on to love

And I could find a way to make it
Don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you